The Fatherless Child

I never knew----my father
Only had----a----mother

I wonder----what he thought----about me
Did he wonder----- who will----she be?

Did he ever
(Perhaps----never)

Rock me in his arms
Enjoy----my----baby----charms?

Sing a----lullabye
Or see me cry

Play and jiggle me
Hold me upon----his knee

Throw me gently----into the air
Caress my sun warmed----hair

Kiss my cheek
Gently speak

Give me a bath
Smile----upon hearing me laugh

Hold my hand
Did I play----in the sand

Watch me----creep
Rock me----to sleep

Love me----deep

Ruffle my hair
Gaze upon----my sleeping----face

Hold me close
Chase away a (scary) ghost

Think that I was----precious

Think that I might be a princess
Think that I----might be special and famous

Listen to me breathe
(Upon leaving----did he grieve?)

Stroll me in a carriage
Think about a marriage

Pull me on----a sled
Hold a spoon----so I'd----be fed

Watch me toddle
Give me a----bottle

Dance with me
All joyfully

Catch me when I'd fall
Why wasn't he there----at all

Did I grasp his finger
(Did he hold his breath-----in wonder)
and did he let his heart linger

Over my----innocent face
In my crib that innocent place
(Did he think what----I might face)

Pick me up
and hold my cup

So little hands
Could drink

Did he ever think

His only thought was for----a drink

Hold his breath while I took a step

Did he count my toes
and kiss my button nose

Hold me up to the sky
So I could----watch----a butterfly
breezily-----flutter-----by

Did he squeeze me in delight
Was he gentle----with my fright

Hold a buttercup under my chin
To see if it reflected----the mood I was in

Blow some bubbles----and tell me
those are your troubles

Blow on my tummy
Did I think it----funny

Smile at my toothless grin
Burst with pride----feel like a ----king

Feel such joy
When I----played-----with a toy

Hold a flower----to my----nose
Tell me that----it was----a rose

Breathe----and drink in----my----baby fragrance
Play peek-a-boo----Say-----I---------love-----you

Feel so proud
and say out loud

Look at those huge brown eyes

Someone will love her
and bring her paradise

I had golden curls and hair

People would stop----and stare

Did he dress me
Cherish me

Put little arms----and legs into pajamas----for bed
Make sure----that I'd been fed

Did he play This little piggy with my toes
Nobody----knows

Sit with me when I was sick
Try to figure what made----me----tick

I don't think so
I never grieved----
over
what I never----had

Never thought of him
As----dad-------------I should----be----sad

He disappeared
and as I feared

into my life----was seared
It's as I feared

He was no prince
No one----has loved me since

No life's not fair
He wasn't there

He didn't stay
I was the one to pay

I have no memory
Of what he was like----with----me

What loss and grief
He stole away----forever
like----a thief

Anguish and fear
All----written here
The loss-------so very dear

That was my first experience-----with------goodbye
I never got----to ask him--------why

All of life has been----about----goodbye
Each time---------I wonder-------why?

Each time----I die
Too-----numb-----to cry

For there are things-------which SHOULD NEVER BE

God should change
sad------history