(If
He Had Been There)
Jesus
Wept
Holy
Ground
When
Hope---- is All That's Left
Fighting
the "Good" Fight
Enduring
for a Night
Believer/Follower
of Christ
Wings
of Eagles
The
Power and Glory
Jesus----Wept
Forgive
Them
The
Commandment of Love
The
Burden
My
Beloved Memory of My Childhood Church
The
Inquisitioner's Song
Shame
and Blame
An
Example
Joy
of the Lord?
The
Loose Cannon
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(If He Had Been There)
He----would
have written----in the----sand
You----who are without sin----you have no leg----on which-----to
stand
I
don't know what----Jesus wrote
I only know-----it WASN'T time to vote
She----the-----wounded
and tired
Your only thought------it's time----she was----fired
Know
the truth----and it will set you free
Those tears----were for you----and not----for me
He
breathed----the breath of life-----into me
The day I was born-----and said, see?
I
made her-----unique
She turned-----the other cheek
You
slapped her----on the face
I cannot bear it-----such disgrace
She
Is My Daughter
I
walked-----on water
She is----my daughter
I paid the price-----so dear and bought her
Joseph
was sold------into slavery
She stood----alone-----in all----her bravery
She couldn't understand----such henious knavery
Betrayed-----ignored----I----understood
You meant it for evil----I'll make it----for good
Whited
sepelchurs----with dead men's ----bones
I sat and watched----upon my----throne
You
thought that she-----was all-----alone
Could you not hear-----the wounded's-----moan?
One
day-----that facade----will fall
You'll know----you were wrong-----after all
You
thought you were doing----my will
But that's why----I went and died----upon that----hill
To
seek----and to save that which were lost
I was willing to pay that price----she was worth----that cost
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Jesus Wept
I'll
separate-----the wheat-----from the chaff
I'll sit back----and have a good----laugh
The
scripture says Jesus wept
I weep again----at promises----not kept
The
promise of----we have a bond----never to be broken
But our promises----meant nothing-----just a token
Of
what we----were SUPPOSED ----to be
Our eyes----are dim
we try
To catch----a glimpse----of Him
But----we cannot
even though
Our souls----he bought
We
must dress a part-----the whole facade
No pain must be shown-----or our countenance----marred
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Holy Ground
Take
off thy shoes----from off----thy feet
-HER needs you wouldn't----meet
For
where you stand----is holy ground
-SHE needed to be----rescued
You left her-----bound
I
came so you----could live life----more abundantly
You went to see----what you could see
I
came to set the captive-----free
you went----she saw----nothing----of me
On
any face----in that dark place
those memories only time----can----erase
It is finished ----and I----gave up----the ghost
You tried to finish her------and take----away
what-----she loved------most
To
sing my praise
For all----her days
I'll
make it up----to her
----This is a promise----my angels-----and I
----never had----to vote
We just agree---------to concur
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When
Hope---- is All That's Left
Sometimes----life is like an ----icicle shard
Jammed----in one eye----all nice----and hard
Sometimes
as soft----as a sigh
You can rest----or----lie down and cry
But waiting for change----is the test
Never giving up----Hoping for the best
Sometimes----at
the end----of the day
Hope----is all that is left----when you kneel to pray
When
all else----has fallen away
You'll hear His words----someday
Well
done----my good and faithful servant he'll say
You've earned your rest----and passed the test-----go out and
play!
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Fighting the "Good" Fight
Ten
thousand shall fall ...........at your right another ten thousand
to your left
(------and still you will stand)
But----those that caused you to stumble----while leaving you bereft
(with my righteousness will one day have to deal with my hand)
Because I----dwell in you
I never----lost you----from my sight
You
fought the good fight
The
wicked had their fiery darts
I only see inside-----------no hearts
Those
hypocrites----murderers-----and thieves
caring not what anyone thinks or believes
Thou
has made it a den----of iniquity
Where love----and trust----should be
Hypocrites---
because----YOU sin every day
...and yet.....you are there----and still stay
Murderers----because----you
tried----to murder a soul
I have to----restore her and make her----whole
Thieves----because
you tried to steal----her peace----of mind
Her wounded spirit----I now----bind
Her
scars and pain----her reality to bear
She found----no comfort----there
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Enduring for a Night
For sorrow----endureth for----------a night
(I've waited for so long-----why is there-------no light)
Oh, God, you've hidden-----------------from my sight
For Joy-----cometh-------------in the morning
(When shall I turn my face--------------from mourning)
Where
is thy light---------------and song
Oh, Jesus------------------------it's-------------- way too long
Their
(church) God -----------------must be very small
He's barely there------------------at all
He
fits only-------in the smallest----------pew
Not much bigger------------------than me--------------or you
He's
sanitized-----packaged-----in smallest -----------form
Not even realizing----------------------this is not-------the
norm
He's
out on the hillside------searching-------------for (His) lost
sheep
While your minds------and hearts-------------------are fast-------asleep
He
is with the-----dying-----------------------and the lost
You're unable to do that-------------------you count----the cost
You'd
say--------- for you-----I'll pray-----------ask me for help---------------
another day----------------------I must be on my way-----------------------------
To
go to that church---------------------where God is small
----and never-------------------when you cry--------hear you--------------at
all
I
was not-----------------so small--------------------
You just-----------------didn't see ME--------------------that's
all
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Believer/Follower of Christ
I'll
now be a follower of Christ ----------(don't call me a cChristian
anymore)
It doesn't fit------------------I've shut---------------that door
For
a Christian can do such evil-----------------in his name
-------------while believing they're right------------they add-------such
shame
Being a ----follower of Christ-----------------I can do----------no
harm
While in His----------footsteps-----cause---------------no alarm
I
know whom I have believed (my favorite hymn)
I'll see Him one day-------------------even though-----I was-----------dead
If-----by
His spirit----------------I am lead
.................and I follow------------what he has said
He
said my ways----------------are not---------------your ways
and...................I'll be with you--------------til the end------------of
your days
So,
follow Me----------------------and not a ----------church or----------pastor
I am the Way the truth----and the life ----anything else----just
a-------disaster
So,
follow Me-----and not (church) mankind
For they------------are deaf---------------and dumb---------------and
blind
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Wings of Eagles
If
I go---------------to the ends----------of the earth-----------you
will------------be there
With-----------wings of eagles----your burdens-----------------to
share
I'll
never leave you-------------nor forsake you--------
like those people----------were---------wont to do
No
power in Heaven-----or earth------can take you ever-----from my
hand
My love is----eternal----------------------like the many----grains
of sand
No
one----can pluck----you out
----no fear for you---------------and never doubt
With
wings of eagles-----the four corners of the earth------------you
will fly
I'll be there------I will not loose you----no matter-----------------how
you try
I've
placed my seal-----------upon you----you're mine for all------eternity
I hold you----in the palm of my hand--------------that others
may someday see
I
never abandoned you-----like the others-----did
Your value----is priceless---------there can be no bid
So-----hang
on tight------when you are weak
I have great might--------------power-----some wish to seek
I've
placed a rainbow---------------in the sky
Like Me-------------you'll never die
When
an angel meets -----------------a fairy-child ------------------
It's like----------------------a------------------ lullabye
lullabye-----that I will-------------sing
To wipe-----those tears...............that --- sting
Of
all the cruelties---------------you have endured--------------
....and hearing Me-------------you can be------assured
Jesus loves you------------------this you can.............. know
He told---------------and tells me-------- so.........
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The Power and Glory
As Job----------------my patience----------is long
I await------to hear-----------------------the song
..............of
justice-------- prevailing-------------------
Like------------a ship------------that is------------sailing
A zephyr------------to speed it---------------on its' way
I look for it-------------to appear----one glorious----day
His
nostrils will flare------------------the sails will billow
I'll be given------a cloud--------------for my pillow
When
I appear----on heaven's shore
Where time-----------and cruelty-------------are----------------no
more
With
just-------------my faith--------------I have--------to believe
Whenever He----calls------------------I'll have to-------leave
For
heaven and earth-----------------will pass away
............I wait---------------for Him----------to say
I
ever-----------------loved you
Everything now--------------will soon----------be new
So,
dry those tears
In Heaven--------------------
There are no fears--------------------
All those----who caused you-------------such pain
an-----NEVER-------------do that------again
Over
here------is a brand new-----------choir
(Where your membership-------------will never----------expire)
So, now my child-------------you will sing-------------with brilliance--------------and
(heavenly) fire
------------and
dance---------------to your heart's content
Because--------------it is for you----I have now-------sent
To
live in (My) glory
-----to tell My story............
............of
how you endured------------through it all
Because on me----------------you always--------would call
Look upon------------my celestial city
Some of them will not be there
More's the pity
Your
guardian angel------------is here
With that presence-------------you had--------no fear
His
job--------------is done
Your's---------------just begun------------------
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Jesus----Wept
....................and Jesus wept
What you did to her--------------I didn't accept
You
knew--------------the law
That was all------------that I saw
Where
was-------------compassion----------and love--------------------
Flying away?--------------on the wings -----of a dove?
dove---------------I had sent--------------for good-------------and
peace
To let you know------------all chaos--------------should cease
I
hid my face-------and also-----------my eyes
You mocked (my) love and justice
I saw this-----------from paradise
I
felt -----the nails-------------once again
(I thought)---------------now she---------------is where------------I
had once been
It
will not always-----------------be this way
I'll take her home-------------------some day
I
saw the crowd----------------gathered-----and heard their cries
----------(again)
.............She was where----------------I had once------------------------------
been
She
hung there-------------------as I------had done
Her grief-----------had just--------------begun
You
spat-----------upon her face (as they had done--------to Me)
How did that feel----------that--------------hollow useless-----------------
victory !
At least--------------I had-------------a decent burial---------------in
a tomb
She'd like to have---------------retreated-------------back-------to
a---------mother's womb
No
pity-----------and nothing--------to say
I remember----------that too--------------------that very --------day
Into they hands I commended------------my spirit
She did that too------------even though------like me------------she
feared it
The cruel-----crowds--------have------------long since--------gone
Her cruel crowd------------------left her----------to journey----on
I
sit at the right hand--------------of the Father------------now
She never had a father----------------------but she has------------somehow
(To
understand----why this happened)
Please let this cup-----pass from me--------------------
Why didn't you--------------see
It
was NOT------my will, but THINE-------------------
You could have let------------my glory-------------SHINE!
Begone from me-------------I knew you-----------not
ruelty--------------and nails-----------------was all-------------she
got
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Forgive Them
Father-----forgive them-------------they know not------------what
they do -------------
You couldn't know----------------how that felt---------til it
happened------to you
One
of my sheep---------------was caught------in the brambles
To disrespect her---------------and add to her life-----------of
shambles................
That
was NOT----------------what I intended ------------for you--------to
do
You were supposed----------to love and care--------------Is this
what you would want------
to happen--------------to you!
My
way-----------is not------------your way
------------at what cost------------the price---------------she
had----------to pay
You
hurt----------------my sheep
with.................pain (and words)----------------so harsh----------and
deep
I
love my sheep-----------and never stop-----------------until I
find---------the missing--------one
You didn't search---------You said--------------- -we're -------------done
With
ignorance and cruelty----------those ballots said:
It doesn't matter----------------for us------------you can/will
be--------------------dead
I
picked up the pieces---------------and held her-----------close--------I
said:
ome unto me----and I will give you---------------rest----------you
are not----dead
I'm
always-----------------here
your heart-----to ----cheer
I'll
speak-----------kindness----to your----soul
I'll lift you out----of (their) darkness
...and out of their------------dark----hole
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The
Commandment of Love
I
commanded you------------------that you were----to love----------one
another
This-----------was your mother............sister..................or
brother
The
command-------------was-----------------NEVER
..........a relationship------------to sever
I
NEVER commanded you-----------to do---------------what you did
and from My sight---------------none of you---------------are
hid
You
must have forgotten-------my COMMANDMENT to LOVE--------------
My peace (love) symbol--------------is that---------------of a
dove
You
shot---------an arrow-------------in to-------------that ----tender
heart
------her lifetime-----------lived--------------in hell -----------from
comfort----apart
That
dove------------lay crushed----------with heart------------still
beating
For YOU---------------------were-----a part---------of that CRUEL
MEETING-------------
You
made--------------a mockery-------------of my forgiveness-----------and
love
----the crushing----------blow------------not friend-----------but-------------
foe!!!!
I
(tenderly)-----------reached down-----------------and held her--------------to
my----------breast
......and whispered------softly----------------- My Love----you
are-------------my best--------------
---------------------of
what-----------------I ----tried to----teach mankind
You had eyes------wide open-------------------and they--------were
simply-----------blind
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The
Burden
I
took----the high road
(You never helped me----carry)
My------heavy----load
Why
did not----one of you-----ever contact me
I guess----you didn't care-----didn't want to see
You
took the word-----of just--------ONE
You never asked-----what he had----done
----to
help you-----no accountability
We didn't------want to----see
We
cared nothing----for justice----and right
It was just easier----to vote---------that awful night
Where
now----is that----restorative process
all forgotten------I guess
You
can continue----to cope----and suffer
alone-------as usual-----no help to buffer
The
good samaritan----would shudder-----and cringe
If----on your lives---------his behavior----he'd have to----hinge
Lying
in the road-----bleeding----and in pain
Perhaps----we'll pass----this way--------again
The
shame belongs to you-----not me
That was----no victory
Just
a sad----reminder
----of what---- Christians had done to her
I
have to re-live----that pain
----again--------------and again
While
your lives----to go on and on
My mind----revisits----that pain-----every dawn
I go to bed-----not counting----sheep
but counting----ballots-----in my sleep
Jesus
said: I've' counted----the cost
----of what you----lost
It
wasn't anything to me
-----I hope you will ----see
But people----without----heart
with me-----you will make----a new-----start
So,
abide----in me
and you----will see
What
the locusts have eaten
while you----they had----beaten
I
will make it for good
Like----the others----should
So,
dry your----eyes
You are----my prize
rise!
Against you no gates of hell----can ever prevail
I am (your God)---------------------I never fail
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My Beloved Memory of
My Childhood Church
I
must----return----to the God----of my childhood
Where people-----loved me-------and understood
They'd
never------cast me----aside
They would be there----If ever I cried
The
land----of flannelgraphs----
and smiles------and laughs
Cherished----with love----for all
----even if you'd happen to fall
The
land of Reverend Moses-----and those others
so loving and cherishing----those kindly-----mothers
My
family------not of birth
----but of love-----and mirth
They
were love-----personified-----
They'd love me-----until I died
They'd
wrap----loving arms-----around me
Come back to us----we feel----your misery----
But the church (building) is long since----gone
But----their lives----and song----live------on
In
my heart----until I die
They hear----and know my cry (Like Jesus)
May
the Lord watch-----between me and thee while we are absent----one
from another
We'd repeat-----after service----on Sunday------sister to sister-----and
brother to brother
They
are with me-----still
Those glad memories------my mind----is filled
They
were the salt-of-the-earth------------and light
I see them now----they're in my----sight
Bless them----for the heritage----they gave me
I can always know-----that HE
Will
be with me----until the end
Until----someday-----he will send
Angels to guide me
Into-----eternity
Where
I will see-----the dear faces
----which have stayed----with me----in life's dark places
To
God be the glory!
For they (like He)-----------know my----story
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The
Inquisitioner's Song
We'd
like for you----to appear before us----they said
There's only 3 questions
I'd have been better off------dead
Questions
I had answered-----long before
Before I had ever----walked in----that door
Where
rattlesnakes sat
Appearing to-----chat
Vouyerism
seems----to be the order of the----day
Sex on their minds-----who wants to----play
Give
us the----detail(s)
And if all that----should ------fail
We could ask other questions----far beyond the pale
You
are so full of sin-----
We wish you'd----give in
No
(juicy) answers----are forthcoming
Come on now our fingers----we're drumming
We'd rather be humming.......
20
choruses of..........confess, confess you are a mess
and that-----we cannot bless
Some
juicy gossip----we now can----share
We think that now you're in our----snare
Oh
darn----she got away
We can disrespect her----another day
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Shame and Blame
I'd
hoped at least one (deacon) would have the guts and nerve
But......as I figured-----it was (not God)....but the pastor----they
served
I
faced them-----all
They cast----a pall
No
words of understanding----or of ----love
(just accusation and criticism)
Thinking their actions ----were from God-----above
Never
mind the facts
We are about----shame and blame
Like us----you are not----the same
I
was in a court-----of law
court-----where JUSTI E NEVER S W------
Such
goings on----in the name of God
They used a hammer----and a ----rod
To
beat----His sheep
They easily----sleep
Those
hypocrite(s)
As there----you sit
Full
of arrogance----and of pride
While I........was by her----side
You
took no pity on my child
You had forgotten----my ways----are meek and mild
I
followed many----an inquisition
You ignored ME----and ursurped----my position
Forgetting that I was the great----physician
Like
Pontius Pilate-----you said: crucify her (this is what she heard)
While from my side-----she never----stirred
You washed your hands----while throwing ----that stone
But (you forgot)----that she is mine---------one of my own
My
sheep hear my voice...they come when I call-----and they know
me
Thinking that you----were following ME?!------How could that be
I
cannot bear----to look-----at you
-----because of the evil.............that men -----(you) deacons
do
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An Example
He
said........I want to-----make an example----of you
I was thinking-----well, that's something------new
part of the Bible----I had somehow been able to----miss
----and loving me so much-----that was a gentle kiss
I
must look that up----someday
or maybe----I'll pray--------
-----to
read chapters ---of love
if He was sent----from above
I
know----he didn't write that---- in His word
I wonder if-----others-----have heard
His
message----is love----again-----and again----
----nothing------to do----with these sons of perdition ----these----
men
Is that Biblical ?! ----said----with such----arrogance------and
pride
----while I----sitting there-----all wounded--------inside
I
cannot help you------I cannot even-----help myself you know
Listen to me!----and if you do not--------we'll have to kill you
you'll have to----go
The
Bible says you reap----what you----sow
They----are the ones----who brought themselves----LOW
He
told some-----lies----and probably believes them----too
Someday----he will----answer------to ME---- AND to YOU
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Joy of the Lord?
There-----I
see no joy of the Lord-----in any face
Maybe it's just-------that place?
Where's
the peace and love----which Jesus spoke about
Where's the joyous smiles-----and any----glad shout
of praise and glory
the reason for----Jesus' life----and story
It's
not safe to be real
For your soul----they'll steal
You never heal
While
in that place
Where is----God's grace?
Waiting
for----the next person to judge because of sin
Be afraid----to ever step in
They
should look happy----because of what He's done
See that----it was God's son
Who
gave you freedom----and eternal life
But their attititude-----arouses----so much----strife
I
go....to prepare----a place for you
While you------are sitting----in that pew
Do
you go for blessing
or simply to hear about someone----confessing
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The Loose Cannon
He
caused my friends----to want----to commit SUICIDE
What if one of them----HAD died
He also lied
Instead----those
friends-----died----------inside
They wanted to--------hide
From
another session with him
Tearing them-----limb-from-limb
He
says he's qualified
Even though----he caused thoughts of - SUICIDE
He
never understood----what was happening to me
He (couldn't)....and didn't even want to -----see
He
has so many questions
(But no answers)
To others' -----personal-----cancers
He
needs to-----look inside
----and ask himself----why people would rather -----have DIED
One
day it will come out
His victims will be able to----SHOUT
Hallelujah-----amen
The time has come-----we may rest----once again
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